3 months break and 2 weeks of thoughts

A lot of things happened in the last 3 months; more than anything else, I treat this blog as a journal I keep for myself if I ever will read what I wrote some time later. I need to do a better job in updating this...

I had two events that happened in the last 2 weeks that has made me think about my life a little more...

2 weeks ago:
I heard a loud crash while I was working from home; it sounded so dramatic that I really thought a spaceship landed in the backyard or some construction was going on. I scaled over the wall of the house and found an overturned minivan and another car in smoke a dozen yards away. I rushed to the minivan. After much struggle, I managed to get one of the doors ajar and helped a lady and her young kid out to safety. At that moment I felt adrenaline rushing through my veins. More interestingly, once I was calmer hours after, I had a feeling of satisfaction from doing something good in my life which I saw direct implications and at the same time felt humbled on how things can be beyond one's control.

Last night:
Talking about beyond your control....
I have probably flown over 1.5M miles in my life..however I have never experienced a flight like the one I was in last night. The embrodier small jet I was in from my flight from SF to OC shook and rattled (both up and down and side to side) so violently, I really thought it was going to be my last flight. This happened suddenly on the pacific coast and lasted for a good 10 seconds. For a few seconds, I thought of my family and particularly my mom...it's funny the thoughts that come to your mind if you have moments to think before your mind and body resigns to the fact that you might not live to see another day. Surprisingly, I also felt very calm like a brahma cow for slaughter...like its fine if I have to go now. Maybe I was calm as I was elated that I do not need to work another day on this hugely frustrating current project I am in...haha. Whatever the case was...I did think about my job and life.