Trudging

I had to finally face the single biggest pain point I've been carrying; something that I have been procrastinating for the past 2 years. At the same time something inside me died; I need to be patient and let time take care of that healing.

Obsession with Pens

Ever since I moved to Chicago; my lifestyle has changed significantly; lot more time indoors vs. outdoors. Also, I realized I've been doing things that I used to do when I was a kid. For example, I used to make model cars, tanks, etc. So I ended up building this boat...and now my obsessions with writing instruments came back. I remember when I was in elementary school, I will save up money to get one of those parker or cross pens. Even though they were pieces of crap based on my current standards; they mean a world to me. So i accumulated a bunch of dupont, caran d'ache, faber castell, mont blanc pens now...not sure what i'm doing. There's more to life than the 4 walls during winter...thats my key takeaway...I'm counting days to see the sun soon...and eventually more of the sun forever.

2010

Alright, it's 2010 now. There has been quite a few changes in my life since I last wrote. I've gotten an MBA, lived in Singapore for a period of time, made some cool friends in the process. Also, I moved to Chicago.

Will write soon

Resolution

I set forth this year pledging to make some major changes in my life. To focus more on my personal life. It's end April and some of my plans are taking shape. I wonder how things will be this time next year.

What is a recession?

A recession is when your neighbor loses his job.

A depression is when you lose your job

Little Princess is downgraded to Little Miss Evil

Little Princess (A.K.A. Little Buddy), Little Dude (A.K.A. Vickie) and family went cycling at East Coast Park and had lunch at Long Beach Restaurant.

At Lunch, Little Princess failed to finish her food. When further investigated, she quickly slipped down her chair and hid underneath the lunch table like an endangered specie. The committee (Ray and I) has officially downgraded little Miss Princess to the status of Miss Evil. hehehe....

The "Evil" status was first bestowed upon me by Miss Princess since I repeatedly requested to rest my tired feet on her decorative pillow. However, my behavior has been stellar ever since and thus I have relinquished my title to the more deserving Miss Princess.

3 months break and 2 weeks of thoughts

A lot of things happened in the last 3 months; more than anything else, I treat this blog as a journal I keep for myself if I ever will read what I wrote some time later. I need to do a better job in updating this...

I had two events that happened in the last 2 weeks that has made me think about my life a little more...

2 weeks ago:
I heard a loud crash while I was working from home; it sounded so dramatic that I really thought a spaceship landed in the backyard or some construction was going on. I scaled over the wall of the house and found an overturned minivan and another car in smoke a dozen yards away. I rushed to the minivan. After much struggle, I managed to get one of the doors ajar and helped a lady and her young kid out to safety. At that moment I felt adrenaline rushing through my veins. More interestingly, once I was calmer hours after, I had a feeling of satisfaction from doing something good in my life which I saw direct implications and at the same time felt humbled on how things can be beyond one's control.

Last night:
Talking about beyond your control....
I have probably flown over 1.5M miles in my life..however I have never experienced a flight like the one I was in last night. The embrodier small jet I was in from my flight from SF to OC shook and rattled (both up and down and side to side) so violently, I really thought it was going to be my last flight. This happened suddenly on the pacific coast and lasted for a good 10 seconds. For a few seconds, I thought of my family and particularly my mom...it's funny the thoughts that come to your mind if you have moments to think before your mind and body resigns to the fact that you might not live to see another day. Surprisingly, I also felt very calm like a brahma cow for slaughter...like its fine if I have to go now. Maybe I was calm as I was elated that I do not need to work another day on this hugely frustrating current project I am in...haha. Whatever the case was...I did think about my job and life.